I thought it would be fun to ‘track myself’ during this 21 Day Awakening Fast at Mars Hill Community Church here in Sacramento and share with you some of the things that I am discovering about myself and God. I have never even come close to this kind of BIG fast in my life. Last night I was awake until after midnight with a weird nervousness about this. I really love food and I really love God. I never thought that those two things would go toe to toe at this level. Like everybody else doing this at Mars Hill right now, I am wondering if I can make it through my commitment AND get the kind of connection with the Lord I am after. As I write that last sentence it sounds backwards. I think God is after me … more than I am after Him. So I guess the question really is, “Will God get the kind of connection with me that He is after?’
So what is my fasting plan? Well, like you, that is between me and God. But trust me, it’s going to get uncomfortable. The other day heard someone pray a very spiritual prayer about the fast, “Oh, Lord, can you really use an empty vessel?” I thought to myself, ”Lord, can you use an angry vessel?” LOL
I hope so
So right around 11:24 a.m., right before lunch, I felt that first real fasting ‘hit’. I took a deep breath and thought “21 days…… yikes” . It’s evening now on the first day and what do I feel spiritually? Well, no real huge answers to any of my life’s big prayers have been answered, but I will tell you this. I do feel extremely whole and solid when it comes to my faith. That has to be worth something! My faith actually feels very real right now. I would also describe Day One like this… I didn’t just think ‘about the Lord’ today, instead, I found myself thinking in detail about my “relationship” with the Lord”. HUGE DIFFERENCE! So far, the fast is bringing me focus! And I will take that anytime! More tomorrow! If you are fasting and need something to chew on here is Proverbs 11:28 “A life devoted to things is a dead life, a stump; a God-shaped life is a flourishing tree.”
